Panic Attack

I'm already Unsteady, Caught In petty Thought, Anxiety Has got me, And I can't see, I can't be seen, I seem stuck In between, Blind and Out of time, Out of hand, Out of my mind, It's like an unplanned Silent scream, A blaring siren, My arms are iron, My psyche is flighty, Retreating, Besieged entirely, Pleading for release, But peace is unlikely, I need sedation, Salvation at least, It's not a nightmare It's right there, It's real It's evil, Cerebral, Wrapping me from ankle to heel Strapping me to assembly lines And I can't snap the confines, I'm forced to stand on land mines Set to detonate at unknown times, This Waiting, Anticipating, Is incapacitating, My body is falling slow, I try to swallow my heart Whole With a lumping throat Thumping out of control, Seizing, Leaving me remote, Everything that I used to know Is reduced to "NO" Gasping, "NO" Asking for "HELP" I yelp in dread I've Never felt so alive I've Never felt so dead