Self Destruction

How can I rest calmly Every thought a haunting Leaving an emptiness so deep

Now oceans apart Seeking what we must Ever Apart for the best

Yet love still lingers

It was real you see At least it was for me Searching for beauty

On distant shores In waves of Green. Was it- a dream, a fantasy?

To awake one day With hateful words retracted Forgiveness awaits all ire enacted

Anger withheld Eating from within only a poison you’ve taken

In hopes my life will end